So absurd it doesn't deserve a Title!

Ever since I moved back to Reno from Fairbanks I have been obsessing about Alaska. I know I need to finish school, that was my main reason for coming back home after the election. I know there where times I was scared to death being away from my friends and family and was kind of miserable while I lived in Fairbanks but now that I have been home for about four and half months I am starting to realize how much I miss Alaska. 

I really do want to move back to Alaska but I don't know what I would do for a living. I have huge goals and ambitions for the political world. I know that DC is the place to be. I also love Nevada politics BUT then I keep on discovering that I love Alaska and I want that state to become my home. I know I am crazy but I love it.

I am still debating with myself about whether I am gonna go back after I graduate or not. It is a huge roller coaster. I used to think I had my entire life planned out but I always gave room for change. Now I have no clue at all what I am doing. Is this apart of growing up??? Or is it that I am just discovering new things about myself? Am I challenging myself in life? I have no clue. What I know is that I want to have two things that I can't. I suppose that is apart of Kierkegaard's idea of absurdity. Even though I know I am far from being a Knight of Faith or Resignation. But I do understand his idea of absurdity. That is what I am stuck in. The world of absurdity. 

I also know that if I where to move to Alaska again I would have more opportunity for jobs in Anchorage but after living in the interior of Alaska I don't think I could live in Anchorage. Who knows. Like I said I had my life planned and now it is changing rapidly. 

I think I just want out of Reno again because I am even considering Vegas if I where to do Night Life PR (see previous blog) or even SF. I am just lost. All what I know is that I need to graduate. Can I do it in one year? I hope so. It is my goal to be graduated by summer 2010. I have finally figured out how to do that. Until I figure this out I am just going to continue living and let life take me where it is taking me.

How about this for the Future?

So the other night I was sitting at the Gold N' Silver diner with a group of friends. For those who aren't from the great state of Nevada, the Gold N' Silver is the best diner in the world. It is one of those typical diners you see in films that are set in my state. It is a great place. Anyway we where sitting in the Gold N' Silver and somehow my future came up. 

In the midst of this conversation we began to plan and strategize my future. We have decided that I am going to enter the world of Night Life Public Relations. Essentially I will be planning huge parties and getting people to go to these parties, among many other events that involve the Night Life. 

This summer will be the summer that this career will begin. Since I am turning 21 on June 17, I will be able to attend bar tending school over the summer. I have my brother-in-law working his connections to get me an internship for the Night Life PR. This career has to start soon because while the group of us where talking at Gold N' Silver it was decided that people can only do Night Life PR until they are 35 or the become the creepers who are trying to stay hip.

Once 35 hits I will then make the transition back into Politics. After all this is Nevada and a career like Night Life PR is very acceptable especially to enter into the political world. The question now becomes, should I live this new fresh idea or just to stick to my original plans on life??? Essentially going straight into the political world.

Time

As many of you know, it is time for the time to "Spring Forward." We are entering daylights saving time. Essentially the government is just making everyone wake-up an hour earlier. I understand to the fullest that this tradition started in order to save energy, even though it is a tedious experience to go through. I like to sleep-in late and run late for classes with coffee in hand. This upcoming week I will probably be running later than usual because of time. However I will do what ever it takes in order to reduce the amount of energy I use. Even with the rough transition period to daylight-savings time I enjoy it a lot more than standard time. 

Even though time is just time and we are just doing everything an hour earlier than normal it plays a psychological game on us. Americans are dictated by this concept of time. We are told everyday as a child. "Never be late!" Even though it used to not be like this when the country first started to form. Time became essential when the country started to urbanize. Before this process of urbanizing and industrializing many Americans lived in only rural areas. They where farmers and ranchers. They allowed the natural since dictate them. Americans woke-up when the sun rose and started their duties. They would harvest when it started to get cold etc. They where not dictated by the clock like we are today.

The question comes to is the natural clock better than the societal clock of a.m. and p.m.? Somedays I wish I could live just off of the natural clock. I would be able to wake-up when I wake-up and go to sleep when I am tired. I would return to nature and survive. Then I realize the beauty of societal time because you are able to plan and know when to expect things.

Time also gives us an approach of understanding age and history by looking into the past. It also allows us to have hope for the future. Such as when Bush was in office everyone was looking forward for him to get the hell out and we new exactly when this would occur. 

As much as the natural clock sounds good in theory I know that we will all continue to be a slave to time. It is something that you can not escape. People can be a little more lenient on what is on time for class because no ones watches are set the same. As long as you are in the 5 minute period of early or late you should not be penalized. 

I know that this may take a long time to change that theory because of the capitalism and time dictating Americans. This idea and pressure of always being on time came from the industrial revolution. If a factory worker showed up to work late they would find themselves out of a job. So we have taught ourselves never to be late (even though I always run late). 

Time is something I can discuss for hours but unfortunately I am a slave to time and I cannot finish my thought because finishing my homework on time is calling my name. However what are your ideas on time?